Ordination Reflection: The Rev. Bill Krizner

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by Rev. Bill Krizner, St. Peter’s Anglican Cathedral, Tallahassee

"And I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?” Then I said, “Here I am! Send me.'" - Isaiah 6:8

June 21, 2020. . . I count it as the 5th best day of my life. The date of my ordination to the priesthood falls only after my marriage to my covenant partner and best friend of 20 years and the birth of my three precious girls. It was a glorious day filled with the rich blessings that only the Lord can offer: friends from decades of ministry; family who supported me throughout the entirety of the three year discernment process, as well as seminary; fellow clergy that sacrificially gave of their time and talents to help shape my formation; and the God of the Universe that both saved me in my wretchedness through His grace alone and then lovingly called me into a life of servitude with Him.  

There were so many moments throughout my process that continually revealed God's ceaseless love through others. I will never forget my first conversation with the Bishop when we shared our testimonies and prayed for one another; or reading, Being A Priest Today, with one of my personal heroes, Father Michael Petty, and discussing the challenges of maintaining balance in our personal and spiritual lives; or my first seminary class with Jim Hobby: a most creative course on apologetics that paved the way for a truly edifying experience at Trinity. There were some incredibly hard times as well. Chief amongst them was living through the tragedy that we all encountered together at St. Peter's. Seeing the depth of hurt that the fall of a clergyperson can have on so many opened my eyes to the importance of living a life of ministry that must include vulnerability and transparency.     

Through it all, I felt God prompting me forward. . . not toward an end goal of a collar or a "+" at the end of my name but instead in learning to deeply love the next soul that He would place before me. For it is the journey of great ministry where we really find our Lord at work. He ministered to me as I sat by parishioners and new friends dying at Hospice. He was there when I was able to pray with a couple when the wife was diagnosed with cancer. And He was there when I offered Eucharist to a parish that had overcome deep divide to remember the power of His forgiveness and grace.  

Thank you, Jesus, for the call and please allow me to continue to excitedly raise my hand and declare "Here I am. Send me!"